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Memory Capsules

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In memory of our loved ones. Because words make us feel better. Words give us strength. Because words can draw a picture. Words can tell their story !

Write about your loved one story Store in a capsule every memory you remember before the human mind would fail us.

If life had a rewind button I'd rewind those moments I was not there with you and make sure I spend each day with you.

You are an angel smiling from above
Looking at me prouding
Wanting me not to worry
You are my blessing from above
And will always be !

Love you always and Forever!
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  1. ProducerJim Murray

    Jim Murray

    18/02/2017
    The Critical Importance Of Family In Today’s World of Weirdness
    The Critical Importance Of Family In Today’s World of WeirdnessAs many of you know I have just lost a part of my immediate family. My brother-in law (sans the in-law), Bob Twidle.Yesterday my sister Sharon, Bob’s wife, came over and picked up my wife Heather who is going to stay with her for a couple of days,...
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    Robert Cormack
    20/02/2017 #17 Robert Cormack
    Nice thoughts,@Jim Murray. Agree totally.
    Donald Grandy
    20/02/2017 #16 Donald Grandy
    Thank you for sharing @Jim Murray. Beautiful thoughts and reflections.
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    20/02/2017 #15 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    Beautiful family @Jim Murray and love is the greatest asset/gift we could ever receive on planet earth. Sending good thoughts during this difficult time to you and your family.
    Milos Djukic
    20/02/2017 #14 Anonymous
    Thank you @Jim Murray!
    CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    20/02/2017 #13 CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    "Because a family is the core energy unit of the universe." That is the greatest single line that any human being can speak and is privileged to know. I was in a hotel in Belgium that faced what was clearly the National Stadium of the Belgium football team and its name was the King Baudouin Stadium. It was just a curiousity that my hotel was opposite it.

    It is when I took a walk and there was a tram line next to it, that I saw the station name "Heysel". I never connected the two but now I had realized that this was the Heysel Stadium were so many Italian football fans died. The stadium had been rebuilt and now they called it King Baudouin Stadium. From that moment, the stadium I saw from hotel window had a totally different meaning.

    Soccer is a tribal thing, but death brings everything down to brass tacks. There was a European final that should have been a showpiece game but crowd disturbance between Liverpool and Juventus supporters led to a poorly designed stadium becoming a death-trap and many Juventus supporters were crushed to death on that day. It is not as if this tragedy was simply an Italian one, immediately the game of football was immaterial, it was the loved one's lost that were important.

    Unfortunately tragedy struck Liverpool supporters years later in a FA Cup match in Hillsborough :

    So began a long fight for justice for the Hillsborough tragedy families and a 27 year struggle for truth
    https://www.theguardian.com/football/2016/apr/26/hillsborough-families-27-year-struggle-for-truth-vindicated

    They were vindicated but what can never be brought back are the individual family members. It showed to me, that for all we talk about tribal this and social that - each of those lost loved one's mattered and everything else was secondary.

    Family matters.
    Franci🐝Eugenia Hoffman
    20/02/2017 #11 Franci🐝Eugenia Hoffman
    This is a beautiful post, Jim. One of your best.
    Paul Walters
    19/02/2017 #10 Paul Walters
    @Jim Murray Love indeed conquers all !
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    18/02/2017 #9 🐝 Fatima Williams
    It’s your tribe and as long as they are together, you know you feel complete.

    What a beautiful way to emphasise the importance of family and yes No matter what family comes first and just being with them makes us feel complete. They complete the reason for our existence.

    My heart goes out to you @Jim Murray I cannot tell you I know you feel because I believe Noone can ! I know that you are the only comforter to yourself. But I would say that You make beBee a better place for many and you are loved by all.
    Praying for your family and you during this difficult time. Much love to all !
    David B. Grinberg
    18/02/2017 #7 David B. Grinberg
    Jim, again please accept my most heartfelt sympathy for your loss. I lost my father several years ago, with whom I had an extremely close lifelong bond. He always took care of me and had my back growing up and even thereafter. Thus, when his health began failing, I moved him -- at his request and my urging -- from the many mediocre hospitals of South Florida to one of the world's best hospital near me. I got him into a special geriatric unit at Johns Hopkins Hospital in Baltimore. Perhaps I'll write about this at length in my own post at some point. But my point here is that, like so many, I know the hollow feeling of loss and feel for you during such a difficult time. Again, please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers -- and that of so many other bees, I'm sure. God Bless You, Jim. You are a wise man, outstanding writer and communicator, and an overall good soul. In short, YOU make beBee a better place for all. Lastly, I would reiterate what you wrote above for everyone to ponder:
    "In today’s β€˜divide and conquer’ world there are so many forces working to divide us. Ideologically, by religion, by race, by ethnicity and by β€˜have and have not’ standards.
    And many people fall prey to these forces, all of which, at their root, are powered by hate and the need to make us dependent on a system and not each other."
    Don 🐝 Kerr
    18/02/2017 #6 Don 🐝 Kerr
    @Jim Murray Peace my friend.
    Todd Jones
    18/02/2017 #5 Todd Jones
    Beautiful expression of some heavy hearted, big picture contemplation, Jim. My condolences, and sincere wish that those close to you take this time to consider those things that really matter in our all to brief go-round.
    Julio Angel 🐝Lopez Lopez
    18/02/2017 #4 Julio Angel 🐝Lopez Lopez
    Very true what you say, @Jim Murray Although at times I have endured bad words, not only me, to my wife, that still hurts more. We have proved to be with the tribe. Love is something you give, without worrying that it will return.
    Jim Murray
    18/02/2017 #3 Jim Murray
    #1 Thanks@ Joyce Bowen.
    Gerald Hecht
    18/02/2017 #2 Gerald Hecht
    It's incomprehensibly weird when the death arrives and one sees the chain of family swinging...dangling; all links are vital and when we lose one; things are never gonna be what they were --the (for me) weirdest part in the immediate aftermath are the sounds of people's "well mannered utterances" of condolence...the fact is that it just sucks...and the chain of family is dangling ...and vulnerable.
    Joyce Bowen
    18/02/2017 #1 Joyce Bowen
    "This love is the room that’s always there for kids to sleep in. This love is the ride to wherever anybody really needs to go. This love is the bail money, you get by hook or by crook. This love is the feeling you get when your family is all in one place together, just being with each other." So beautifully put... Thanks for your thoughts.
  2. ProducerCyndi wilkins

    Cyndi wilkins

    23/01/2017
    Time Passages
    Time Passages"As I Perceive The Time I Have Left, I Am Turning Inward Even More And Taking A Look At My Trajectory"jesse kaelis"Love what you do and you will find you have all the time in the world." Sara JacoboviciThere are few subjects that capture my interest...
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    Sara Jacobovici
    21/02/2017 #18 Sara Jacobovici
    Dear @Cyndi wilkins, I can't believe I didn't see this when you first posted it. So happy (as a result of @Franci🐝Eugenia Hoffman's Hive Talk, I joined Memory Capsule hive and saw this there) to see it now. Let me quote you, "...my thoughts weave in and out of time..." What a tremendous line. Thank you Cyndi, for everything.
    Cyndi wilkins
    12/02/2017 #17 Cyndi wilkins
    #16 When the heart speaks there are no words @Pascal Derrien...Thank you for feeling this one with me...
    Pascal Derrien
    12/02/2017 #16 Pascal Derrien
    I am just reading this with interest and thought I would say it out loud even if I don't have anything intelligent to add :-)
    Cyndi wilkins
    12/02/2017 #15 Cyndi wilkins
    #14 @🐝 Fatima Williams..." I think of our dad's more as angels." ...Now that certainly qualifies as a "life after"...Don't you think? They are both smiling at us right now...and yours is blowing you a kiss;-)

    No more beating yourself up my dear...The time of departure was his to choose...and he would never give up on you. Don't give up on yourself...XO
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    12/02/2017 #14 🐝 Fatima Williams
    Thank you @Cyndi wilkins for alerting me to this very beautiful tribute for your Dad. He looks very handsome. I guess he's smiling at us now. I don't know if there is an after life but I think they are much less in pain especially when they die sick. I think of our dad's more as angels and till date beat myself up for Not spending more time with my dad while he was sick. He was a very strong man I wonder why he gave up too soon perhaps he needed our support of spending time with him physically or perhaps he was too tired fighting his illness. I have so many unanswered questions I've buried them deep within.

    The biggest lesson I learnt from him is fight till the end and ensure you have an audience always for he loved to make the crowds smile. Giving you a big hug with lots of love and a thank you too for sharing your story with us.
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    25/01/2017 #13 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #12 "Thanks, You are very intriguing," Ditto Cyndi! We will have to talk more at length about this one day soon :))
    Cyndi wilkins
    25/01/2017 #12 Cyndi wilkins
    #11 " I've had 2 encounters with my dad since he died years ago. One was face to face and we didn't use our mouths to speak yet, I understood him and vice versa." Beautiful example of telepathy...We all possess the ability, we just do not "remember." ..." My Aunt had the same dream- verbatim!! She described the scenery just as I saw it my dream." That's awesome! And this happens ALL the time...we are just not aware of it in our waking reality most of the time...There's a reason why so many people describe the same thing in experiences of "near death." I'll even go so far as to say...UFO encounters;-) But that's another post altogether! Thanks @Lisa 🐝 Gallagher...You are very intriguing;-)
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    25/01/2017 #11 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #10 Very interesting @Cyndi wilkins! I never discard anything like this because there is more we don't know about life/death, the universe and beyond than we do. I've had 2 encounters with my dad since he died years ago. One was face to face and we didn't use our mouths to speak yet, I understood him and vice versa. He gave me 2 simple messages but it took me time to understand one of the messages. The other encounter which appeared like a dream was a 'glimpse' of my dad fishing on a dock and my grandparents young again over in Scotland, sitting on a Veranda outside of a Restaurant sipping tea, chatting, laughing and I had such a sense of calm. My Aunt had the same dream- verbatim!! She described the scenery just as I saw it my dream. I knew it wasn't a dream after that. I think that's cool about your sister too. See, we do get glimpses into the afterlife. I'm a believer.
    Cyndi wilkins
    24/01/2017 #10 Cyndi wilkins
    #9 In this case I was not necessarily in the "dream state" I described in this post...but rather wide awake. I could "feel" him...and hear him...but not physically see him...certainly not vividly like I did in the dream. He was more like an "energetic imprint"....If that makes any sense. I think the reason I could sense him so acutely was the fact that he had not left this plane of existence yet...He was working on it he said;-) Lol...Interestingly, my sister was "visited" by my grandfather in her dreams around the same time. Sort of a "check in" I think because she is so devastated by the loss of my dad. She was telling me about her dream visit and wondered why it was our grandfather that came to her and not dad...When I checked in with him about it, he said he was not strong enough yet to penetrate her grief...he needed to go regain his strength first...My granddad has been deceased for many years now, so for him it was a piece of cake;-) Interesting stuff huh?
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    24/01/2017 #9 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #8 Wow @Cyndi wilkins, you had one heck of a visit! Did he look as he did before his illness or the same as when he left? I find stuff like this so interesting. And, you know me, I would never say, never! That had to have a calming effect? Amazing that he was able to tell you about the missing photo from the reel. I'm glad you shared this! Did any of your sisters have a visit?
    Cyndi wilkins
    24/01/2017 #8 Cyndi wilkins
    #6 I see you found my buzz @Lisa 🐝 Gallagher...Thanks so much for sharing it...I wrote an earlier one called "Frozen In Time" which describes my thoughts as I experience my last moments with him...This post was my search for peace in the aftermath...I will tell you this because you know me well enough to understand the humor in it...The night after he passed he showed up at my bedside chatting in my ear...I had been struggling earlier in the day with my siblings about who to mention in the obituary,,,( I was elected to write it but they all had their bullshit opinions on what it should say, LOL) So dad comes in and says, Look...this is how things are gonna go...you tell them I'm still in charge and I'll tell you what to write...Well, he kept me awake from 2:30 to 6:15am ironing out the details...Man O man...he never talked that much in life! He even mentioned that there was a picture missing from the video feed we had created to run at his funeral service...Both my sister and I had been certain this picture was included on the reel...We went back to look and guess what?? Wasn't there! TRUE STORY;-)
    Cyndi wilkins
    24/01/2017 #7 Cyndi wilkins
    @Todd Jones...I am so sorry for the loss of your father-in-law under such terribly brutal circumstances...It is heartbreaking to lose someone you love, but to watch them suffer a prolonged, torturous departure is terribly traumatic...for them and for their families. My dad had struggled briefly in his final moments and the distress it created in me was overwhelming, so I cannot even imagine how I would have managed to get through what you have just described...My heart goes out to you... I'm sure you still feel this pain very acutely in your own heart. It has certainly reawakened in me the need for us all to redefine what we consider to be "Death with Dignity." Peace to you.
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    24/01/2017 #6 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    What a great tribute to your dad and I hate to use the word I 'understand' your goodbye but it sounded quite similar to what went through my mind after my mom had just passed. My sisters felt the same, so maybe it's not uncommon to wonder if we do believe in spirit and afterlife. I have felt my mom's presence in ways I can't describe and I believe you will too @Cyndi wilkins. I'm so sorry for your loss, I don't think I was one to hear about it until I read this. My heart aches for you but I must say this was a well written piece. Please keep writing!!
    Cyndi wilkins
    24/01/2017 #5 Cyndi wilkins
    #4 Thank you so much again @Shawn Quinlivan, C.Ht. .for your shares, support and very encouraging words. It is ALWAYS appreciated...but especially at this time,,, Very healing for me to share such an intimate part of my journey and have it strike such a deep chord with so many others. Gift from God I think...
    Shawn Quinlivan, C.Ht.
    23/01/2017 #4 Shawn Quinlivan, C.Ht.
    Beautiful, profound, inspiring. Thank you again for sharing, @Cyndi wilkins
    Todd Jones
    23/01/2017 #3 Todd Jones
    Cindi, this post is phenomenal.

    Losing a parent is never easy, and often makes us contemplate our own mortality. Life goes by in a blink, it seems. My familiarity with the loss of my father-in-law to cancer two years ago is an experience that changed me to the core. It was a drawn out matter of pain, suffering, indignation and struggle right up to his last breath. During the last month, there was not a single moment of peace nor relief. He left with a tortured, contorted expression of anguish on his face, as if raging against the inevitable, and furious with a fate beyond his control. He died three weeks before his 72nd birthday.

    I am glad that you have found a measure of comfort amidst the heartbreak.
    Cyndi wilkins
    23/01/2017 #2 Cyndi wilkins
    @David B. Grinberg, @Maria Luquero Vila, @Shawn Quinlivan, C.Ht., @Javier 🐝 beBee....I humbly thank you for finding this buzz "relevant"....
    Cyndi wilkins
    23/01/2017 #1 Cyndi wilkins
    Thank you Aurorasa Sima and Milos Djukic...Much appreciated;-)
  3. ProducerSara Jacobovici

    Sara Jacobovici

    17/11/2016
    A Time to Reflect
    A Time to ReflectImage credit: Clipart KidI opened up a time capsule today; a plastic bag filled with bits of paper with my poems written on them. For about fifteen years, between my late teens and early thirties, I wrote whenever and wherever the muse took me....
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    Sara Jacobovici
    18/11/2016 #15 Sara Jacobovici
    #13 Thank you so much @Irene Hackett for your kind and generous words.
    Sara Jacobovici
    18/11/2016 #14 Sara Jacobovici
    #12 Hang on to the "maybe" @Pascal Derrien. It may actually get you there!
    Pascal Derrien
    17/11/2016 #12 Pascal Derrien
    I relate to the second one most:-) I quite like the concept of time, loss and memories... there is a plaque where my daughter goes to dancing class indicating a time capsule has been buried in 1985 and is not be opened before 2075 I would love to be there when it will be opened but realistically it wont be feasible or maybe......
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    17/11/2016 #11 🐝 Fatima Williams
    #4 I agree Sara Yes it's very true what you say when you link it with trauma. I love that your helping people gain healing. Its a blessing God Bless your soul dear Sara.
    Sara Jacobovici
    17/11/2016 #10 Sara Jacobovici
    #8 Thank you @Virag Gulyas. I love following you on your very busy travels on facebook Virag. Wonderful work!! Wishing you continued creative energy.
    Sara Jacobovici
    17/11/2016 #9 Sara Jacobovici
    #7 Love your comments @Deb 🐝 Helfrich. I feel like you are sitting right next to me. I can almost hear your voice.
    Virag Gulyas
    17/11/2016 #8 Virag Gulyas
    Love it!!! @Sara Jacobovici
    Deb 🐝 Helfrich
    17/11/2016 #7 Deb 🐝 Helfrich
    Breathe and flow, what a stunning set of words to find from earlier days, @Sara Jacobovici. I also felt this sense of 'completeness' in the way that finding and reading a story from my months right after college held so many nuggets of who I am today. I both recognize those words completely and yet they seem strangely separate - I forgot the piece itself, but the memories of the creation were alive and waiting to be retrieved.

    I am looking forward to more discoveries!
    Sara Jacobovici
    17/11/2016 #6 Sara Jacobovici
    #5 Beautifully written @Mohammed A. Jawad, beautifully told.
    Mohammed A. Jawad
    17/11/2016 #5 Mohammed A. Jawad
    Aha...What a poetic ecstasy! Little enjoyments of our past are all great inspirations. As we remember we realize how we wanted to do something to express ourselves. As life unfolds itself with many transitions and when passing time narrates tidbits from our memories, we ought to gauge how well we lived and what's ahead to celebrate our living.
    Sara Jacobovici
    17/11/2016 #4 Sara Jacobovici
    #3 Thank you @🐝 Fatima Williams for your generous response and for the added value of your comment. I appreciate your line, "...re-entering time we do it all the time as the strength we draw from the experience is much stronger than the experience itself." It is a very powerful "opposite" to what I refer to clinically when I deal with traumatic memories. When it is too frightening for the individual to remember a traumatic experience, I remind that individual that she or he survived the event and so will surely survive the memory of the event during the therapy work. In this case, when an individual re-enters in order to heal, the strength is in the process of the healing not in the re-entry.
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    17/11/2016 #3 🐝 Fatima Williams
    Dear @Sara Jacobovici Lovely flash back of memories and I can imagine how the nostalgia. I love your phrase on re-entering time we do it all the time as the strength we draw from the experience is much stronger than the experience itself.

    "its strength never doubted.
    the struggle of morality…..wrestled in our minds
    alongside projections of what’s wrong and what’s right
    already decided in black and white. "

    The battle and struggle has undoubted strength as it's foundation and we can see the beauty of that strength reflected in your writing and you. Thank you πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€— Loved the read
    Sara Jacobovici
    17/11/2016 #2 Sara Jacobovici
    #1 Dear @Ali Anani, your comment humbles and flatters me, thank you. But it also reflects that a comment by you holds so much more. Thank you for your response and insights.
    Ali Anani
    17/11/2016 #1 Ali Anani
    @Sara Jacobovici- you wrote in this amazing buzz "As I have written about the integrated me, these poems represent a younger personal me whose voice I have carried over into the older professional me". This shows that past influences our present and future and that we are fractal humans as we scale up past experiences. We don't drop our past; more we scale its major events.
    This scaling up shows exactly who you are. The titles of your past capsules are still consistent with your recent titles. Is the past what makes our roots the grow our fractal tree? I tend to say yes because of your great buzzz.
    in fractions and fleeting opportunities
    through distinct forms and underlying plans.
    life threadlike…..ready to snap
    I am ready to say you are a beautiful mind and your time capsule is filled with wisdom. This buzz is unique in its value for it show our footprints over time. Yours are outstanding fractal footprints. Shared
  4. ProducerLisa 🐝 Gallagher
    Mixed Bag Of Emotions
    Mixed Bag Of EmotionsToday I was reminded that it was almost a year ago when mom became bedridden. My sister sent out an email to our family asking us if we would like to honor Mom by making homemade gifts for Christmas in honor of my mom. I never thought I would feel...
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    Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    29/12/2016 #66 Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    #65 Ah, of course! Well, as someone else commented, it appears beBee is making some changes. For example I am seeing in the notifications, "There are ## changes with your buzz" - yes, double-digits sometimes. So I have to scour through and try to find out if it was a Relevant, share, new comment or +/-.
    Harvey Lloyd
    29/12/2016 #65 Harvey Lloyd
    #63 BeBee
    Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    29/12/2016 #64 Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    And, of course, a Happy New Year to everyone!
    Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    29/12/2016 #63 Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    #62 Hi Harvey,
    What do you mean by platform?
    Harvey Lloyd
    29/12/2016 #62 Harvey Lloyd
    #58 For me, the question, is it the platform or synaptic dust. Happy New Year
    Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    29/12/2016 #61 Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    I bought the soundtrack and can hear what sounds like "dysfunctional FUNGUL!" Can't get it out of my head!
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    29/12/2016 #60 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #59 Couldn't agree more Jared, compassion and even getting away from the madness is the sane thing to do. It's called self-preservation. Wow, I just heard on the news (speaking of death) Debbie Reynolds just died 1 day after her daughter Carrie Fisher.

    That Tony Soprano was one smart character... get in touch with too many feelings and yep, never shut up. Great quote, thanks for sharing it!! Sending good thoughts your way, sounds like it might have been a hard season for you too.
    Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    29/12/2016 #59 Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    #57 Thanks, Lisa. Any time.
    Compassion is so much better. That, and/or getting away from the madness.

    I will quote the character Tony Soprano:

    "Let me tell ya something. Nowadays, everybody's gotta go to shrinks, and counselors, and go on 'Sally Jessy Raphael' and talk about their problems. What happened to Gary Cooper? The strong, silent type. That was an American. He wasn't in touch with his feelings. He just did what he had to do. See, what they didn't know was once they got Gary Cooper in touch with his feelings that they wouldn't be able to shut him up! And then it's dysfunction this, and dysfunction that, and **dysfunction vaffancul**!" (** mine)
    Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    29/12/2016 #58 Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    #54 Agreed. I am missing things lately.
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    29/12/2016 #57 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #55 I'm so sorry to hear that @Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS, I can't imagine doing something 'fun' or leaving a loved one on the day of a major surgery, furthermore... it's even sadder when the family was unaware that one person was the glue that bonded and once they are gone (with your example, the matriarch) and the family falls apart. I wonder how common this is? I fear that. I pray it doesn't happen. I'm just sorry and you hang in there too. I'm sure life can teach us tough lessons and we either become more compassionate because of them, or bitter. I choose compassion. Thanks for sharing!
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    29/12/2016 #56 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #54 How sweet @Harvey Lloyd, I'm sure you would have gotten along well. Same, I have some notifications that are very old. I would assume that's something which will be fixed, they are working on so much for the NY! Thanks for you kind comments, appreciated.
    Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    28/12/2016 #55 Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    #53 Not a single worry, @Lisa 🐝 Gallagher. Family dynamics can be downright dysfunctional. I've dealt with it for over 20 years.
    I had a bout Christmas day so I get it. So sorry it did not go so well this year. I've seen family members want to go watch a comedian do a skeleton skit - that's right - the day a patriarch was recovering from open-heart surgery and look pale as a, well skeleton! No fun.

    I agree with Harvey - we each have our own ways of reflecting - and responding. Some seem to force their way on others, and realize it too late, if ever.

    Also saw a huge fun family break up when the Matriarch died. Sad. Tough.

    Hang in there. It can get better. When you are ready for it.
    Harvey Lloyd
    28/12/2016 #54 Harvey Lloyd
    #50 No need for apologies. I am really having trouble with keeping up with tags and other aspects of the platform. I guess some changes are in the works and i need to figure them out. Again your mom sounds like an amazing women. I would have enjoyed a conversation or two with her. She could have "learned" me something i am sure.

    Have great new year.
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    28/12/2016 #53 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    Pt 2, sorry I wrote a buzz in response to your comment @Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS Then they were sending out texts and including me in the texts saying how wonderful it was to get together and they shared their personal joys they had with each other on Christmas day. Contained within the texts were a few, "sorry you were sick, we missed you and hope your feeling better." They all know I hate texts for conversing. And, I almost felt like it was a slap in the face to include me in texts about their day together when I wasn't there and never heard from anyone personally. So I wrote in my last text, "Ok quit rubbing it in LOL. It still hurts that I wasn't able to be there, feeling a loss I can't explain. Love you all." That was ignored too. I ended up sending an email to my sister who initiated and wrote the most and told her how I felt. She got angry with me and I ended up reacting out anger too, telling her I don't want to talk, we will talk again someday when I'm better and people don't take me so personally." Yep, not feeling good about the outcome or even my own response. Sorry you were the one to get this story.. I think I'm feeling so confused. Thanks for your nice comment and right now I don't think MoM would be feeling very happy about all of this. :-(
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    28/12/2016 #52 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #49 Hi @Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS, I'm sorry for your losses too! It's never easy to watch someone die and then 'lose' them forever. It's a part of life but I'm sure we can all agree, it doesn't make it any less painful knowing this.

    Oddly, I became ill on Christmas morning and I wasn't able to be with my family. Once I was feeling better and had my wits back I felt so alone that evening. This year more than any other year, I really needed to be with my family. Maybe I felt there would be some more closure? At any rate I never received a call from my sisters on Christmas day or the next day. I thought maybe (ok, yes... here comes the expectations) someone would call later that night or at least the next day. Pt 1
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    28/12/2016 #51 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #48 Hi @Dorothy Cooper, I can't imagine how tough life has been on you. Six new joints, wow! Are you still bedridden or did getting new joints help you to rehab somewhat? Thanks for sharing your story and sending good thoughts!!
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    28/12/2016 #50 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #47 Hi @Harvey Lloyd, I'm so glad a few people posted on this buzz in the last day because somehow I missed your comment and apologize. I love your description of reflection. I think you hit the nail on the head and it makes total sense. Even through grief we are all dealing with it differently, and I think we all have forgotten this on a given day which in some ways has drawn us apart instead of the glue that held us together. I guess we need to find our way back. I believe it's only temporary but it's evident even through my own actions or inaction. Good to keep in mind, thanks!
    Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    27/12/2016 #49 Jared Wiese, 🐝 adding VALUE & RESULTS
    WoW, @Lisa 🐝 Gallagher, how you brought me to tears! I have seen loved ones pass all too soon - some not as happily or cherished as others. Your MoM definitely loved, loved, loved you all in her own wonderful way. This is clear from your beautiful and cathartic writing.

    Holidays are tough. And you got great ideas and support, which should help in moving on while still remembering her fondly. You are indeed "lucky to be part of a large family that all gets along so well." I hope you were able to reach out to them and be with them more.

    --Sorry for your sadness; hopeful for your healing--
    Dorothy Cooper
    27/12/2016 #48 Dorothy Cooper
    I have a disability and was bedridden with crippling Juvenile Arthritis. I also began the journey in midlife of turning into a titanium wonder with six joints. I would love to connect and I see you are from Pa! Happy New Year and thanks for sharing your struggles. Dorrie
    Harvey Lloyd
    28/10/2016 #47 Harvey Lloyd
    #45 I believe that we can all find some levels of being in tune with our emotions. These emotions get tested at small levels and we do seem to learn some system of management. The walk we speak of here though, doesn't dull an emotion, but rather rings it out so that we might see beyond the areas of our life that it had covered. The finality of the walk with no route of escape becomes a reflecting pool of ourselves, we are not always happy with the reflection. A process we would all like to avoid, and many do. I would imagine you took the courage to walk this journey. Never easy, but a step that only perseverance can show. Wisdom always comes at a price.

    Facing the reflecting pool at this level, i found, is indeed personal. Although personal, it is a journey we will all make at some point. Some of my family members did not have the courage to walk by this pool. I could only walk with them knowing they would eventually face the reflection. Avoiding this reflection requires lots of energy and from the outside it looks and shows as a misguided process of hiding.

    I offer this up only as a perspective of drawing the family together again. Each has to walk at their speed. Your wisdom can be shared at the pool when they return.
  5. ProducerCityVP 🐝 Manjit
    The Tragedy of Aaron
    The Tragedy of AaronThe Study hive is my personal interface between my offline studies through both public and college libraries - though I have yet to make good use of any college library I have the choice to access.Β  My presence here is as a 21st Century learner, but...
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    Laurent Boscherini
    18/09/2016 #5 Anonymous
    Thank you @CityVP 🐝 Manjit for sharing your insightful and relevant post. Let me share you one relevant quote which enlightens quite well what happened... " Since one cannot educate adults, the word "education" has an evil sound in politics; there is a pretense of education, when the real purpose is coercion without the use of force. " - HANNAH ARENDT
    Dean Owen
    18/09/2016 #4 Dean Owen
    This is a seriously important piece, one that I would expect to see in The Guardian or somewhere. You are so right, there is a thin line between prosecution and persecution. People in power will always fear change, and apparently fear new thinking.
    CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    16/09/2016 #3 CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    #2 Dear Fatima there is nothing wrong with fighting injustice and obscene power but one must be prepared for the consequences. Both Edward Snowden and Julian Assange are now living in exile but they had a plan, however Aaron underestimated the consequences of special interest in education and the power they wield with government officials. This is why there must be campaign finance reform and a democratization of special interest groups.

    In order to fear these things we must first get caught in the cross-hairs of those who have a different opinion of freedom and what the future should be. Instead of fearing power, we must be thoughtful that there are people like Aaron who were willing to see a bigger picture and the tragedy here is what his loss has meant in terms of reforms to the law and more importantly, the reshaping of law so society can move into the knowledge age.

    These battles for transformation are nothing new, these fights occurred at the beginning of the first wave of globalization at the beginning of the century, as well as at all other prior transformational periods. https://www.etown.edu/offices/president/2014-11-14-WW1-Globalization.pdf Another way that supporters of globalization look at this is written here http://www.americanforeignrelations.com/E-N/Globalization-First-era-of-modern-globalization-to-1914.html

    You and I Fatima are ordinary mortals far removed from the world Aaron was trying to change, there should be no fear from trying to be aware of these things, unless of course anxiety is our underlying condition, and that is a personal transformation.
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    16/09/2016 #2 🐝 Fatima Williams
    my heart goes out to Aaron such a brilliant mind targeted and forced to live a short life. Our lives have become a movie directed by those who want to control us and sometimes we end up being mere puppets. An untold melancholy remains in my heart as I think more about this Aaron's story made me feel so insecure about what can happen to one who is much lesser in thought and actions than him
    CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    05/09/2016 #1 CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    This is the You-Tube Link to the documentary about the life of Aaron Swartz, it is called "The Internet's Own Boy" (English only)
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hCwjDuoJK0E
  6. ProducerDean Owen

    Dean Owen

    15/08/2016
    She's Blue
    She's BlueI was woken by a noise so foreign I cowered under my sheets. But curiosity got the better of me. It was still dark outside. I had no concept of this time of day. I would sleep at 9pm, wake up at 7am, have breakfast and be off to...
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    Ken Boddie
    04/09/2016 #40 Ken Boddie
    I'll watch anything with Robin Williams in it. Even a red nose. πŸ˜‚
    Dean Owen
    04/09/2016 #39 Dean Owen
    #38 Thanks Ken-san. It doesn't look like it was, but time to dust off the DVD and watch it again (one of my favourite movies)
    Ken Boddie
    04/09/2016 #38 Ken Boddie
    Not sure of the origins of Red Nise Day, Dean-San, but you can find more info at
    sidsandkids.org.
    Dean Owen
    04/09/2016 #37 Dean Owen
    #35 Is that a Patch Adams inspired event? Marked in my calendar for next year. Will find a red nose and add a selfie to this post on June 24th. I loved your little poem (for once!) :) Thanks Ken-san
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    03/09/2016 #36 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #32 that's​ a great idea @Dean Owen
    Ken Boddie
    03/09/2016 #35 Ken Boddie
    Friday 24 June is Red Nose Day here in Oz, Dean-San. Many buy red clown noses and some stick large ones on their cars. All proceeds go to SIDS.

    Grief never leaves us,
    She answers not our why's,
    She hugs us like a shadow,
    And refuses our goodbyes.

    She's there lest we forget,
    When our loved ones slip away,
    That their spirit lives in what we do,
    And everything we say.

    I'm sure your little sister would be proud of her big brother, Dean-San.
    Dean Owen
    03/09/2016 #34 Dean Owen
    #31 Making me blush! Thank you for stopping by and for your beautiful comment. My heart is indeed lighter and my day brighter!
    Dean Owen
    03/09/2016 #33 Dean Owen
    #30 Grief is weird isn't it. I never really grieved. It was only after decades and finally writing this that I actually felt deep emotions of grief. It was easy to lock away in the back drawer, but just wonderful to dust off this memory and share.... Thanks so much @Sarah Elkins
    Dean Owen
    03/09/2016 #32 Dean Owen
    #29 It is easy to miss articles these days with a faster feed and more and more bees. We should perhaps encourage people to subscribe to their favourite writers and check their emailed newsletters.
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    03/09/2016 #31 🐝 Fatima Williams
    @Dean Owen Thank you for introducing Natasha to us. She's a beautiful angel in heaven right now but she has been reborn in our hearts as a new memory , new person , we are going to remember her as you have given life to her time here , through this brave act of sharing her story with us .
    I'm sure and wish that your heart is light now. Peace to Natasha who must have been a very beautiful lady right now judging by your looks ( Winks ).
    Sarah Elkins
    02/09/2016 #30 Sarah Elkins
    Grief is such a strange thing, isn't it, @Dean Owen? What a vivid and heartbreaking memory from your childhood. And yet... I would guess just a little bit of a relief to share it, own it, and appreciate it for its intensity of feeling. Without that, what do we have?
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    02/09/2016 #29 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    #26 I'm sorry I missed your reply @Dean Owen and I just wrote on Donna's buzz I needed to read this because I seem to be missing your stories. wow, I think I'm missing my mind somewhere lol. This was a good yet, sad read again. They do say to lay babies on their backs now, no blankets, no toys and yes open air. I remember fearing SIDS when my babies were little. We swaddled them and laid them on their sides back then.
    Donna-Luisa Eversley
    16/08/2016 #28 Donna-Luisa Eversley
    #27 I will be going soon and will write her name for you my friend @Dean Owen... Celebrate that she lived , however short the time, we can celebrate #hugs
    Dean Owen
    16/08/2016 #27 Dean Owen
    #24 Thanks @Donna-Luisa Eversley. Right now I feel like writing her name in the sand at your beach.
    Dean Owen
    16/08/2016 #26 Dean Owen
    #23 Thanks @Lisa Gallagher. I don't know if you saw Pascal's story, similar, but the circumstance of discovery are like something out of a novel -https://www.bebee.com/producer/@pascal-derrien-leinster/hold-up-the-memory-bank
    Donna-Luisa Eversley
    16/08/2016 #24 Donna-Luisa Eversley
    @Dean Owen, this was a tragic and sad recollection , memory of the night your sister died. Your storytelling is deep and profound, just as your love for your sister.. gone but not forgotten...thanks for sharing..
    Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    16/08/2016 #23 Lisa 🐝 Gallagher
    So very sad that you lost your sister when she was an infant @Dean Owen. I cant imagine how tough that was for your parents! I can imagine you do still think of her and will always have unanswered questions. SIDS is scary, I know my daughter worries about it with the new baby. They follow all the guidelines but I think that fear is there for most parents. Thanks for sharing something so personal
    Dean Owen
    16/08/2016 #22 Dean Owen
    #20 Thanks Phil. I was wondering if it the same in every country. I know in Japan there is always a huge debate amongst mothers on whether to have a baby sleep on it's back or front. It is a particular anxious period. Much appreciate your kind words.
    Dean Owen
    16/08/2016 #21 Dean Owen
    #19 From what you say, and from what I know of you, she must be quite a character! Send her the note!
    Phil Friedman
    16/08/2016 #20 Phil Friedman
    @Dean Owen, I cannot even begin to imagine your anguish. As parents, my wife and I were absolutely crazed about SIDS and keeping everything out of our daughters' crib (except the dog, who faithfully watched over each of them in turn, and would scold us if we didn't respond quickly enough to their crying). We allowed only a bottom sheet and no blanket. And when they were very young, we had a set of soft foam wedges to keep them sleeping on their sides. But truth be told, we have a close and dear friend who did all of that and more, yet lost a baby to SIDS anyway. It may be the universe's way of reminding us that we are not in control, or it may be just random misfortune. I am sorry for your loss, and for the hole in your heart that I am sure will always be there.
  7. Producer🐝 Fatima Williams
    They say time is medicine ; I now believe it's a myth
    They say time is medicine ; I now believe it's a mythIf time were medicine it would heal our wounds but no amount of time could ever make us not miss you dada.You are missed so badly ; my heart can't explain how much, each day I wake up I wish you were still there.To tell us where we're lacking and...
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    Cyndi wilkins
    11/02/2017 #14 Cyndi wilkins
    Sending warm hugs right back to you@🐝 Fatima Williams...It is so very difficult for little girls to say goodbye to their daddies....That child's heart within is broken, but the women we are now will nurture our souls so we can move beyond the pain and keep living...Much love to you...XO
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    03/01/2017 #13 🐝 Fatima Williams
    #12 Thank you dear @Franci🐝Eugenia Hoffman This was a tough one to write and we missed him so much this Christmas and new year. There hasn't been a day I haven't thought and wish he were with me. I'm sure your Mom is super proud of the wonderful person you are Franci.
    It's the graces we receive from them that shine right through us.
    Franci🐝Eugenia Hoffman
    02/01/2017 #12 Franci🐝Eugenia Hoffman
    Fatima, my mom passed away 49 years ago, yet I feel she is with me every day. As stated by @Milos Djukic, fractals are forever. Your tribute to your dad is beautiful and I am sure he is pleased to have such a loving daughter.
    Milos Djukic
    01/08/2016 #11 Anonymous
    Fractals are forever dear @🐝 Fatima Williams.
    Dean Owen
    30/07/2016 #10 Dean Owen
    Just read this again, brought a second tear to my eye...
    CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    23/07/2016 #9 CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    #8 Dear @🐝 Fatima Williams, you and @Sara Jacobovici honour your respective fathers immensely by being beautiful souls, for no parent wants to see their children in a state of hurt but in a state of blessing. That is the reality of love, we all know love when the magnitude of love quakes within our own heart - and my intention here is not to awaken that hurt but to show how awaken that love is within you both - for it is this awakened state that showers strength into the life we have and hence become the substance of winged blessings. For sure our time provides us more gifts than simply the photograph but our hearts contain the gifts that a greater relationship gave us. Now as I absorb the meaning of the love you express, this is what enriches me in my own life - and this the grounded reality of how we choose to interact in this virtual space - that the gifts we find in that are more precious than success. Did you lose a father or did you win love? If winning is society's chief credo this is the only kind of winning I want to seek.
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    23/07/2016 #8 🐝 Fatima Williams
    #7 Thank you @Sara Jacobovici . I'm guessing the scar can never heal, I'm going to look at this as a tatoo that remains with me till the end. And I admire what @CityVP 🐝 Manjit has graciously mentioned in the comments below, on how we can create an online virtual space where loved one's can come and visit and pay respects online. Where my unborn children or family in the near future can reminisce the memories of our loved ones. This is absolutely, a brilliant thing and I wish my parents had done the same, it would have helped connect with my grand parents whom I hardly remember as they had partrd when I was very young.
    Sara Jacobovici
    23/07/2016 #7 Sara Jacobovici
    I felt and heard your words coming straight from the heart @🐝 Fatima Williams. It's been 20 years for me since my father passed away. I miss him today as much as the day he passed but the wound is a separate experience. I find that each year a layer of scar tissue covers the wound. It just makes breathing easier when I do miss him. Wishing you all the best Fatima.
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    23/07/2016 #6 🐝 Fatima Williams
    #3 Thank you @Anees Zaidi for your kind words
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    23/07/2016 #5 🐝 Fatima Williams
    #4 Thank you @CityVP 🐝 Manjit for reading and commenting.
    CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    22/07/2016 #4 CityVP 🐝 Manjit
    The online space has opened up for creating memories of loved one's that have passed https://www.everplans.com/articles/the-top-10-online-memorial-websites View more
    The online space has opened up for creating memories of loved one's that have passed https://www.everplans.com/articles/the-top-10-online-memorial-websites and here memory capsules as a hive serves to do the same thing. My view is that personal space is not just about our work life, it is the expression of life. As time passes and the virtual world merges with the physical one, spaces where loved one's can come and visit and pay respects online will become far greater in form than it is now.

    The stories of Philip Clinton Williams live within you and this is where I differentiate between sharing as publishing and a life shared. This is also a very delicate line because it involves highly emotional aspects of our life - and in a world driven largely by marketers and professionals one cannot assume that people who have used advantage as a strategy, have the same motivation as those who genuinely read obituaries.

    I do read obituaries because the best one's give me a sense of life. Since often I do not know these families or people, I am free respect human life as a human being. I also read these obituaries because I want to be intelligent about grief, and there are myths about grief that we are not cognoscente of and if a part of life is increasing our intelligence about mortality. There is great reverence in the one thing that we all have a commonality with. At the same time I also note that the spiritual also contains ego.

    We continue to treat social and business networks from the view of connection - but affinity is far greater than that. I want to understand my relationship with grief, just as writing this buzz provides comfort for you and can be highly cathartic in that regard. Affinity needs to be as close to authenticity and the heart as possible, and that in it self inspires in us greater intelligence. Close
    Anees Zaidi
    22/07/2016 #3 Anees Zaidi
    Thank you dear @🐝 Fatima Williams for remembering me on such an emotional moment. Neither I met you nor I met your father. But I see your dad in you. I know he was kind like you, he was loving and caring like you. The change is inevitable - sooner or later this has to happen. The best we can do is to put our steps in the shoes of our loving parents and continue their journey. May God bless you with all His bounties and give your dad a place in the Heaven.
    🐝 Fatima Williams
    22/07/2016 #2 🐝 Fatima Williams
    @Anees Zaidi I thought about you when I was writing this for my dad a day ago, because you said your daughter has my name. Thank you for making me feel special by saying that.
    Dean Owen
    21/07/2016 #1 Dean Owen
    Beautiful. I am sure he reads these words and smiles....