What if you never learned how to level it all out?
What if you always perceived your life from an off-kilter state?
What if instead of a natural equilibrium, you always got it tilted?
From this rocky start, is there a way to ground, anew?
Plant feet firmly, squarely on solid earth within a swiftly swirling planet.
From initial conditions obscured in the mist of time,
I became a person who I did not intend to become.
And now what?
Nothing feels centered.
No love soothes my jagged soul.
All perceived as inconsequential drudgery,
Because I didn't grow whole.
I'm behind bars of my own perception,
but I cannot discover the path to walk completely around.
Find a new vantage point.
Express love freely.
Untether my soul.
I feel the freedom, but it eludes concrete actions.
Each step, happens as though mired in sludge.
I don't know what to do.
Some moment soon, I will soar, catch the current of flow that will ignite my life.
Until then, I write....