Lisa Vanderburg en Lifestyle, Communications and journalism, Writers 5/3/2018 · 1 min de lectura · +800

Waiting for Release

I am stalled. Frozen. Frigid. Fretful. Fearful. Maybe I'm waiting for...what?

What is it with writing that can make what you know to be true become so excruciatingly difficult to put into words? Deidré Wallace hit my note today in her Buzz about 'writing your story'.

Maybe I am fearful, but of what or whom or when....

Taking into account Deidre's pointers (sorry - no accent on my mama-board), I know I want to write my story. I know I can write. I know (ish) my story. Yet, yet...something's in the way.

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There are so many platforms, that I've limited myself to just two, and I keep them separate. I know I can write; plenty of views and comments on my 'professional' side to affirm, and some fab ones here too! It's all good, so why am I stuck?

I have my one invitation to 'write my story' yet I'm hitting boulders sooooo soon. Why?

I think (personally), it has to do with permission. As kids, we were denied 'permission' on some many levels; on so many things. We obeyed the rule-of-law laid down because we suffered both Stockholm syndrome and PTSD in turn.

A friend of mine, Kim Wheeler, wrote his life story, his book. It didn't have the necessary 'happy ending' but actually - things (God willing) are looking up for him.

How do you describe something indescribable, yet subtle? I was a small child when my story started; language had little room. It is freakin' difficult! More so, I think, do people want to read this...does it really matter anymore? I can clinically say it does matter. it then healthy? My story [predictably] is less than wholesome, but it's not the worst. Certainly the major player in my life was at best, absolutely fascinating. At worst, absolutely terrifying. He lives. In me. He knows.......

Lisa Vanderburg 9/3/2018 · #25

#23 Thank you @Ken Boddie! I'm amazed you have any strength at all after your move!! :)

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Lisa Vanderburg 9/3/2018 · #24

#22 Salient points and much appreciated @CityVP 🐝 Manjit.....a rock to ponder on I need! Tyndale was on a 'Great Commission' of faith, not that I could have done it. But I don't wanna be working for the 'other party' by producing something I cannot see the grace in. That said....I think that's your point: I'll find the redemption in the journey? Brilliant man!!

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Ken Boddie 9/3/2018 · #23

For what it’s worth, Lisa, you have my permission. 🤣
Every ‘true’ story starts with “Once upon a time .....”. 🤥

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CityVP 🐝 Manjit 8/3/2018 · #22

#20 There are tipping points in human consciousness but we do not know when or how they will occur. There are also flashdance moments when it seems consciousness has found its mark, only to see how history reverses taking several steps backwards for the one step forward. Ultimately the consciousness that brews within us is not the story we write for others but releases us from within.

That is the delicate balance because we do not control or at least should not control what others think and what we think fits in the evolutionary state that ferments at different levels, timespans, thoughts and ultimately consciousness. If it feels right the human condition will do it but if we touch a nerve with society, it might be because we about to change something very real.

Look at William Tyndale, for him it was an inner calling within him that urged him to write the Bible in English. That fell foul of the social currency of his time and the Church burned him at the stake, but thanks to Tyndale - his sacrifice was stronger than fear, and in case that fear Tyndale was meant to be subjected to was a monumental one. Tyndale knew the cost but still did what he knew would cost him his life in a most brutal fashion.

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Lisa Vanderburg 8/3/2018 · #20

#19 Most grateful @CityVP 🐝 Manjit, as your comment adds weight to the onus of burden regarding responsibility. I'm beginning to see the story I had is not for telling in a book - it would serve no one. I'll find another tale that will!

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CityVP 🐝 Manjit 8/3/2018 · #19

It is a very delicate exercise which sometimes we can get wrong, but when it works for us, it contributes first and foremost to our own learning. I am not a great person in regards to "sharing my story" or to evoke something about the human condition. Like the physical rock life, we learn equally from turning our various virtual stones.

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Lisa Vanderburg 7/3/2018 · #18

#17 You are a master over your words, dear @Ali 🐝 Anani, Brand Ambassador @beBee, whereas I am slave to mine :)


@Lisa Vanderburg writes "How do you describe something indescribable, yet subtle"?
I add how we tell the story of the unknown unknowns? Big challenges, but still worthy to share your llfe story.

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