Rolling The Dice On The Unknown
September 30th 2016 is a date that might not mean much to many but to me was a chance to reflect.
You see it was Seven Hundred and Thirty Days since I was made redundant (for the second time) and chose not to re-enter the mainstream workforce. Yep September 30th 2014 I "left the building" and I awoke on October 1st 2014 and started the journey into the Unknown.
September 30th 2016 was in essence the 730th day in a row of Rolling The Dice on The Unknown.
What Is The Unknown?
- Getting my first sale
- Being successful or heading back to the concrete jungle tail between my legs
- "Cutting the mustard" as a practitioner in Humanising Managers in a saturated market
- The type of response I would get to my work and how that would make me feel
- Coping with the loneliness of working in a business of one
- The impact of losing my Identity
- Walking my Talk or Losing My Nerve (What would come first?)
- Generating enough revenue to provide for my family and our living standard
Despite all of this over time some things also become known
What Is now Known after 712 Days is this:
- I have been highly praised for my different approach
- I have been labelled as the "worst facilitator I've used in 25 years" by a client
- I have been ready to throw it in once and was told to "eat my own dog food" by someone near and dear to me
- I have struggled at times with loss of identity and a sense of belonging
- I have been called both an inspiration and a dickhead after the same keynote
- I have ridden the roller coaster from despair to elation (even from one hour to the next)
- I have continually invested in myself and stretched myself to the edge of my learning and distress zones
- I have developed a program called The Human Manager that is impacting positively on individuals, teams and workplaces
- I have pushed, prodded and provoked individuals and teams in order to get them to make real progress and offered them a mirror and a chance to name their part in the mess they find themselves in
- I have failed, been rejected and scrapped plans and very reluctantly let go of programs that no longer aligned with my purpose
- I have learned to say "no" to potential customers where I could "smell compliance"
- I have finished writing my first book called Being Human due for release in Feb 2017.
- I have loved every minute of it (when I get a chance to reflect on the failures as learning opportunities) from a balcony view and have hated every minute of it (when I was right in the middle of it) from the dance floor.
- I have met some amazing human beings along the way
The one Unknown that I absolutely needed to be Known early on and has had the greatest impact on me came to me about 365 days into my experience .....................a conscious decision to sit with the unknown on how much revenue I have