Max Carter en The Church of Rock 'N' Roll, Music / Música, Rock Music / Música Rock Shaman • The Church of Rock 'N' Roll.org 24/11/2016 · 2 min de lectura · +600

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For have you?

My life has been an endless search for someone to level with me and tell me just what in the blue holy fuck is going on and what can I really do about it?

I think it's also been called the condition of being human. U2 and "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For" is for me a ride through the times of my life engaged in this endless search for someone to level with me and give me the simple truth. Some call it the search for that conversation with God where God answers all these questions with simple truth. 


I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you.
Where does one begin to search to find a place to talk to God one on one?


I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you.
Where doesn't one search to find a place to talk to God one on one?


But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
I never found the God I was wanted to find anywhere hoping to finally have that one on one talk with God face to face for once. 

 

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her finger tips
It burned like fire
(I was) burning inside her.
God is unconditional love and acceptance and I found God's love in the arms of women here and there in my life more than any other place on earth, yet it still wasn't the God I wanted to talk to face to face and that love always had a way of becoming conditional or it would have only taken one. 


I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone.
My theory is that the language of the angels is the language of emotions with out words. I found the devil in the temptation that started with holding a woman's hand. Part of my Reiki system for transmutation that aids in managing my empathic skills creates an inner fire that also requires I detach from emotion.

 

But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
Even in the deepest meditation having the most profound and mind expanding realizations I still never found the face to face conversation with God I wanted. 


I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colours will bleed into one
Bleed into one.
But yes, I'm still running.
You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross of my shame
Oh my shame, you know I believe it.
What kingdom to come do I really believe in?

An endless question with no solid answers for me though others of various religions will tell you exactly which kingdom is coming.

What if we got rid of all of them and realized all our blood bleeds red and as one bleeds all bleed?

The only shame I ever carried was the pride that kept me from seeing how many ways God answered me and taught through me and everyone else because that is where God is, in everything and everyone.  


But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for.
I will never find the God I wanted to find, I found the God I needed to find. I will never have the conversation with God I wanted to have. God will never show up face to face the way I wanted to answer my questions and give me the plain and simple truth. God showed up in every other way to show me the plain and simple truth. 

What you find depends on what you are looking for. I didn't find God, I realized God had always been there in every way God could be except the way I wanted to teach me to have faith in what God provides versus meeting my demands. 

I often say God is the ultimate stalker. God never goes away and is watching everything and waiting for us to let God show us in God's way the simple truth of life the Universe and most things. A little bit of mystery and chaos must remain or what fun would life be?

I fought God's answers every time I said "It can't be that simple?"

I got what I wanted just not the way I wanted it and that is something we can all relate to. 

I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For have you?


Franci Eugenia Hoffman 25/11/2016 · #1

I like your last statement. "I got what I wanted just not the way I wanted it and that is something we can all relate to."

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