Self-esteem as a learning process
The attached article appeared in German in “Spektrum Hören”, a magazine for which I write a colunm every two months.
Hearing impairment is only one aspect of the personality. However, it is not easy to stand by this with self-confidence. How the highly hearing-impaired blogger Renee Iseli -Smits managed to accept herself is described in this article.
Grüezi Dear readers! When someone becomes hearing impaired, it is
usually hard to accept. The consequences in everyday life and for the
social contacts are far-reaching, for those affected and their
environment. Misunderstandings and shame are often part of our everyday
life and unfortunately often influence our self-confidence.
Rather, we are perceived by ourselves and others through our hearing impairment, although that is only part of our being. Yes, we have a hearing impairment, but should not be reduced to it. We are also human, with everything in between.
When I got hearing impaired myself, I was still in my teens and very
vulnerable. My hearing aid at the time was necessary, but I had
difficulty accepting it. For example, when I had to hurry to reach a
train, I had the feeling that my hearing aid was stopping me. Of course,
that was only between the ears, not the hearing aid in my ear!
It wasn’t like I was hiding my hearing impairment or the hearing aids at that time, but I didn’t like talking about it: I just heard a little less, period.
Only after my hearing loss grew severe, I became profoundly hard of
hearing and could no longer avoid behind the ear hearing aids, there was
no way around but to face it.
For about a year, I wrestled with myself. Unconsciously I had gotten into a mourning process, went through all stages: denial, emotional carousel and farewell. The acceptance came after I found someone who not only listened correctly, but also asked the right questions, put her finger on the sore spots. I found answers to my questions, solutions to my challenges and learned not only to accept my hearing impairment, but also to be hearing impaired.
I became more aware of myself, learned what I needed and sometimes I had to say no to better distribute my available energy.
Writing a diary has helped me a lot to deal more openly with my hearing