I can't handle today
It Started Off Like Every Other
Who, what, when, where, why, dunno, dunno, dunno, dunno, dunno. All I know is today was looking to be great. Had an awesome day yesterday with the family. Went out and had a great little adventure. I was looking forward to Church, and going to the in laws today. Then just as luck would have it, everything came to a screeching halt.
I found myself, near hyperventilating in church, feeling frantic, and just like I was about to explode, probably how someone feels with really high blood pressure. Physically I felt fine. There was't anything really going on or happening in that sense at that very moment. All I know is that I went from feeling quite peaceful, to absolute panic. I started saying to myself, no, not now. I just wanted to make it through this day and have a good weekend. Nope.
So now, I feel incapable of doing much, I'm just trying to drown out the panic, and that blaring alarm going off in my head that something is wrong, like the world is ending or something. Too all of you who feel this way, I'm sorry this is something we have to go through. To all of you who are not, thank you for your support. We need your love and thats pretty much it.